“All children, except one, grow up.”
~ J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan
This is the real harsh reality that I am currently facing. Growing up. Maturity. Adulthood. Plain and simple, growing up is hard. Like really hard.
I always thought that I was the mature type. I was always incredibly dedicated to school and to achieving success in my future. But now, before I even had time to realize that it was approaching, the future is here. The future is the present… I should write fortune cookies, this stuff is gold. But in all seriousness, here I am done school, got a job and now everyone thinks that I am this grown up person.
The thing is I don’t feel remotely like a grown up. I still want my mum to cook my dinner. I still want to get absolutely trashed on a Saturday night. I want to make mistakes and have zero consequences. I want my dad to keep paying my cell phone bill. I want to live with roommates forever. I want to wear whatever I want when I want. I want to not give a shit.
Does this make me selfish? Yes. Yes it does. But I am not a selfish person, I promise, I’m just a kid who is expected to be an adult and I’m scared. There, I said it. I am scared. It’s not even like I’m scared of failure, in fact I’m kind of proud to say that all the adult things I’ve done so far have gone decently well. I think a more accurate statement would be that I am scared of change and transition. As a student, as a kid, I know who I am and I’m confident in that person. But as an adult, I don’t know what that version of me will look like. I’d rather just get there instead of struggling for years to figure it out first.
But maybe that’s the whole point. Maybe you never really know who are you because you are always changing and so is everything else. I know all of this and I’m still scared. So here I am writing down all my foolish, terrified thoughts about life and changes and growing up. Check out the links below for all the gory details!
Growing Up Is Hard
The Backpack: Why Don’t Adults Carry These Things?! –> Click here
“We’re looking for someone with a little more experience” — > Click here